lightning rod

that's what i am. really. i seem to attract shit, but that's ok, because i've learned how to make shit pies over the years. after we found out sally has breast cancer, i finally verbalized to mike what i've been feeling since i was diagnosed. i thought that since i had it, no one i knew would get it. naive, i know. especially since those lovely odds are one in eight, and i do know more than eight women. so now i'm thinking, because sally and i both know cynthia, does that make cyn exempt (god i hope so!). and since i've told sheri about sally, does that make sheri exempt (again with the god i hope so!). is it like alice's chart on the l word? can it all be traced back to me? i don't want anyone else to go through what i had to go through. i remember after 9/11 thinking i would gladly trade my life if it would bring back everyone who died that day. and three months later i was diagnosed with cancer. be careful what you wish for...