why i'm glad

not just because i now get to do what i love for a living, but also because i now realize i don't have time for dead weight in my life. whether it's a crappy client i kick to the curb, or a stale friendship i refuse to give mouth-to-mouth resuscitation, or just a careless comment from a stranger, i now seem to have a coat of armor i never did before, where those things slough off of me like dead skin. although i still occasionally get upset about some things, i don't need to curl into the fetal position to cope. nor do i stay upset for days on end. all of which is to say, even though i still have ups and downs, cancer has taught me to let things go like i never did before. it's a good thing, too, because otherwise i'd have so much baggage i'd have no room to move around.