paranoia

i was so worried yesterday that the email i sent to the editor who lacked direction was going to cost me more work, but just this morn in my in box was a new monthly assignment! and about art, theater and what not! woo-hoo. so not only will i have more work, but i may even score some free tixs out of it. i used to get free stuff all the time when i toiled at the magpie doing their calendar of arts/music/theater. like the time i got free tickets to the b street, and was there with my date/boss/now brother-in-law and timothy b. was scammin on me. even though he was married. and even though he and my b-i-l are good friends. loser. which one? you decide.so mike and i had a big talk last night, and it started out so funny. we went out to dinner and i told him this idea i have for a novel, and i was trying to explain it because there's some major plot twistyness, and i was having a hard time. then we came home and were hanging out and i guess i was being quiet because he asked me what i was thinking about ("the novel?" he asked) and i said really slowly, "noooo, i've been thinking about..." and really fast he said, "you don't want to go back to school do you?" to which the answer was hell no. but the thinking was about what seems to be a fav journal topic--food. i've decided to ditch the almost vegan/vegetarian lifestyle after over a year of it. i've given it a good go. but let's face it, i'm never gonna give up my leather purses and shoes, and i still eat cheese occasionally. so i'm going back to chicken and fish (but no red meat, not because i don't believe in it but because it scares me--mad cow and all). we're still staying with soy milk, yogurt and ice cream. and now when we go to moxie next week for diner, i can get the chicken artichoke, which is not only the best meal in all of sacramento (probably northern california), but also the thing i've been depriving myself of for a year now!!! moxie, here i come...and right now, jamba here i come for a green tea smoothie, my other fav thing right now!